Oh my, I've never been the best blogger in the world, but almost 4 years is really ridiculous!! I've been getting kicked around in life and fell into a deep dark depression. I'm still there, but I'm over myself. All I do is work a few days and stare at my damn phone the other days. I lost my restaurant, not because we were unsuccessful, but because I trusted people I thought were my friends. They weren't my friends at all. But no sense in re-hashing all of that though. We were a great success and that's all I'm going to hang onto from that experience.
I then went back to the job I've had on and off for 15 years. A month later, my boss died and his wife sold the business. Soooooo, I went to work a couple of other places, lost my dog to cancer, and that's when I just lost it!! I couldn't even take anymore changes or death and dying! So now I'm on meds, and I really don't feel like it's helping. It helps my anxiety but depression is still here. I've just decided to get off my butt and start doing the things I used to love and enjoy! I can't be a lump forever. I can't lay on the couch anymore. I can't look at my phone anymore. I'm just done with that nonsense. I'm giving myself one more chance to kick the crap before I go into some serious therapy.
If it works, great. If not, well....
So I'll be on here a lot more. I don't even know if anybody reads blogs anymore. I don't like I used to, but it's cathartic for me to write, so write I will. Maybe not every single day, but more than once every 4 years lol! Have a happy Sunday! I'll talk to you all soon!!!!
