What in the World Happened to My Blog?!?

Oh my, I've never been the best blogger in the world, but almost 4 years is really ridiculous!!  I've been getting kicked around in life and fell into a deep dark depression.  I'm still there, but I'm over myself.  All I do is work a few days and stare at my damn phone the other days.  I lost my restaurant, not because we were unsuccessful, but because I trusted people I thought were my friends.  They weren't my friends at all. But no sense in re-hashing all of that though.  We were a great success and that's all I'm going to hang onto from that experience.
I then went back to the job I've had on and off for 15 years.  A month later, my boss died and his wife sold the business.  Soooooo, I went to work a couple of other places, lost my dog to cancer, and that's when I just lost it!!  I couldn't even take anymore changes or death and dying!  So now I'm on meds, and I really don't feel like it's helping.  It helps my anxiety but depression is still here.  I've just decided to get off my butt and start doing the things I used to love and enjoy!  I can't be a lump forever.  I can't lay on the couch anymore.  I can't look at my phone anymore.  I'm just done with that nonsense.  I'm giving myself one more chance to kick the crap before I go into some serious therapy.
If it works, great.  If not, well....
So I'll be on here a lot more.  I don't even know if anybody reads blogs anymore.  I don't like I used to, but it's cathartic for me to write, so write I will.  Maybe not every single day, but more than once every 4 years lol! Have a happy Sunday!  I'll talk to you all soon!!!!